learnings from 2022; lessons for 2023

Turn your longings and dreams into action. That’s the only way they’ll ever come to fruition. Live a life that feels like living, whatever that looks like for you. Communicate. Be honest. Acknowledge to accept. Sit in your pain. Do not run from it. Music is life-saving. Dance. Get weird. Find beauty in solitude. Be your own best friend.

“You are standing on the edge of something greater and more powerful than ever before. Life is whispering in your ear, take a step out into the unknown, as fear pulls at the strings tied around your heart, ripping you back into comfort and safety. Be brave my dear. Walk in the wake of the unknown and you will thrive.”

I get to hold hands through this life with the most badass women, who I am eternally grateful for. Mistakes are an opening; opportunities for learning and growth. Embrace the mess. Make the choice to do something different.

Grief is an opening, and a painful ending. Death and rebirth. Self-forgiveness. I can let go. I am allowed to be angry. I am allowed to grieve. Both are necessary to heal. Being alone doesn’t mean that I am lonely. What life am I building for myself? What quiet dreams keep lingering in me? You know yourself better than you think you do. Get quiet. Listen. Learn. Remember. What are my deepest dreams? Excavate. Bring them to life.

“When all of the fires in the world start burning, will there be someone to hold your hand, or will you hold your own? I don’t have the answers to all of the questions in the world but what I do know is that at the end of the day, I hold my own bones.”

Travel is healing, but so is settling in place. Connection and community are everything. My family will always catch me when I fall. Remembrance. Renewal. Acknowledge to accept. Strong compassionate boundaries. Denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. In time, you will always heal. I will never abandon myself again. I can be in my power in peace. Surrender always, but especially while listening to ‘Surrender’ by Maggie Rogers. There is beauty in taking your time. Slow down. What does it mean to stay? Where am I? Who am I? What have I learned? What will this do for my soul? Expansiveness. Deprioritize to prioritize. Keep it simple. Where do I find my child-like joy, enthusiasm and sparkle? Go there. Intentional solitude. Throw out the words right and wrong; good or bad. Everything just is. I decide. Vulnerability, self-assuredness, sunshine, confidence, self-authenticity. Patience and consistency. Rupture and repair. Writing poetry regulates my nervous system. Listen to your intuition. You have all of the answers inside of you.

“In everything you choose, you must first ask: but what will this do to my soul? Will it bring me closer to a heavenly state of being, or anchor me into the ache of this world? Will it make me more of the person I was meant to be, or will it distract me from the true work? Will it pay the bills, but bankrupt my being? Will it impress others, but disappoint the child inside me waiting to see what I do with my freedom? Will I arrive to the end of my life proud that I did this? Will I choose now, or will I wait until I am forced to make the decision I already know is right today? Will I spare myself the suffering? Will I have courage?”

All for now,

All my love,

Onward.

-m